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Okay here new thing,
I am FUCKING HAPPY (as usual anyways) I CANT BEALIVE I feel like this, damn things are just goin to nice and smoth; well with my crazyness i think thats awesome ^_^ meow but yeah school, work personal life damn everything just perfect no more worries. I was in my bed the other day and i was thinking of all my life and ppl around me, i got to the conclusion that shit, fuck the past everything is behind us, so go on with life lol and just keep up go on ^_^ life is to short to have all this drama and bs in our heads ^_^

But yeah new chapter in JUANS life meow. ohhh shit also im going to florida see one of my bestfriends from colombia and my best/crush friend too hahahha lol i love them so much yay !!!!! hahah buut yeah im stupid i guess, or im just crazy. lol

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Okay time for an update:
in about a week ill be in orlando aka universal studios im so happy and excited, cuz this will be my vacations lol and my chritsmas present for myself meow how depressing but yeah its fun ^_^. imjust happy as always nothing goin on in my life just passing as always and livin the best i can as usual=^_^=. but yeah well hopefully my trip will be awesome with lots of fun meow , since ill be alone in christmas and new year so yeah well lets see wat happene meow its all for now

Okay here is another update lol , the cocktail party was awesome i was a beautiful egyptian (omc it was so funny) my costume was  just simply awesome lol and sexy but yeah, well there is nothing that interesting goin on rite now im at work, today is turkey day, later tonite go to cobalt and shake my body and be happy lol but yeah and thats it , ohh my moms b-day is this saturday and im cooking for her yay im so excited, and thats all for now "SMILE  LIFE IS AWESOME ......... AND I LOVE IT " ^_^

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[	music	|	BRING SEXY BACK	]

OMC ONE MORE DAY FOR COCKTAIL PARTY IM SO HAPPY HOPE I SEE EVERYONE THERE ^_^ YAY IKM JUST SO HAPPY, WELL NEW UPDATE OF MY LIFE, IM HAPPY AS USUAL, IM CRAZY, IM DUMN, I LOVE, WELL HAHAHAH EVERYTHING TOGETHER FORM JUAN AND I JUST SIMPLY LOVE IT SO COME TO MY PARTY AND HAVE A BLAST WITH ME COCKTAIL PARTY ^_^ MEOW CIAO DARHLINS

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[	music	|	from paris to berlin	]

WHEN U MEET SOMEONE 

u kinda annoyed me  ( not really)

u tryed to be hard to get  ( shit is hard)

his hot

intelligent

awesome

cute

sexy

talkative

his everything u had ever imagine in someone ^_^

rape him ? no thats not the question

damn  hard thoughts  well wat the future is dont know! ^_^

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[	music	|	Oasis- Dont Look Back With Anger	]

Bla today was bla just shit, I hang out with taylor at my house for a bit, he got mad at me meow shit  I'm thinking so many thing right now damn. then I picked up my mom we went shopping that was fun but anyways. my day was bla in some parts I'm still thinking so many things I'm in a breakdown right now  it sux but what ever who gives a damn. this shit always happened to me FUCK.......>:D I'm tierd of everything, for some reason I just want to go back to colombia or italy any place its better than here. I guess some day i'm just gonna pack my bags and leave  ( WHERE IS JUAN?  WELL HIS GONE..........) I can only think in a few ppl that would miss me. I dont know anymore but whatever.  Right now my head is just about to explote FUCK.... again damn okay I'm done with this dumn shit, AS USUAL I CANT BE HAPPY FOR A BIT CUZ IT ALWAYS BECOMES SHIT, and i end up to be the one who caused without knowing but whatever FUCK...... okay now i'm really done with this shit.......

sorry for for whoever is reading this, i just needed to get it out eventho it didnt work but well w/e but yeah yeah  for readding this stupid things that i wrote........ =~_~= 

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[	music	|	cardigans- loosing my baby	]

MEOW I FEEL AWESOME  meow meow moew moew moew meow mewoe meow =^_^= KITTY  things are going okay in my life at last things are getting okay and i feel great i havent felt like this in a long time. Eventhough i know such happyness doesnt last that long, but i'm enjoing it all of it so its awesome. quack i cant express how i'm feeling right now , i have no words for this feeling meaowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww ^_^ gods. Damn, i'm done, anyways i'm going to sleep now i'm damn tierd so yeah everyone meow <3 nite nite !!!

<3 T <3

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[	music	|	Cowboy Bebop- Ther Real Folk Blues	]

Hello everyone meow, one more day had passed grrrr sux ass man. I got into a fight with my mom the other day it was damn bad i'm etlemly mad at her shit , she call me a "GoD DAMN FAG" and soome other shit that realli pissed me off damn i hate that but whatever as usual its my foult and i'm always the one that did something wrong. Shit i'm tierd of that ,but oh well that my life and it had always been my life; so fuck it i said  to everythning already, i dont care what happened in the future anymore, i'm tierd to look at it and  screw it up always, SHIT everything that i do end up to be wrong or bad it sux o well w/e . there is is only a few ppl that matters to me. ohh well i'm done.

Other things , this weekend was sux except for friday and part of saturday in the morning ^_^ i had fun but yeah well i'm tierd now i'm going to sleep later all.

meow =^_^=

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[	music	|	placebo- WHERE IS MY MIND	]

Ramdom things that I'm thinking right now damn , I'm so crazy , well w/e it's just me. I know I'm not making any sence but behind my words u could find a meaning:

 I've learn to live, but also to die in silence. cry in my shadow days and live in my sunshine mornings. My life is full if things that I enjoy and hate, but i dont even know whether i'm alive or dead, keeping my deepest thought of my nature , i'm in the conclution that I am a being like everyone else. I  preaty much dont understand many things of my life , but what I know is the love that i share for someone. Not even me just love is what is in my heart I preaty much dont understand this feeling, cuz it havent been in my heart for so long, I thought I founded not onece but three time and  it was not true, it just destroy and but me in a shadow world, in a deep ocean of hate and disolution. I didnt find any answers with anyone; I cursted love and close my life to the dark shadow of the moon, putting my pain bahind I learn to kill and destroy. I learn a lot of things about the ones I love; I never wanted this to be ,but I chosee this to happened, u killed me with every touch and kiss, u destroy my love and my sences, blinding me to the truth I flow u. Everything ened, but my heart still with u, I cant undestand that kind of human behavior that I have now , I never experince something that big inside me. I never wanted us to be, eventhough thats a lie.  My love curst ur lips and ur touch , now I fell; my love is not the same. Eventhough I still there for u, I cant look at u the same. think what u'll say to me it can be something u dont want to say , perhaps a lie, but hopefully the truth. I'm here to say, nothing is the what u think it is. T he mirror of  the truth is always there just look inside and see urself, and u'll understand what I'm saing here in this stupid word, nothing make any sence, but thats how life is supposed to be u just have to see it by urself. Changing times of friends and people i see them all. I feel them all, I  can feel and see behond the human eye, I can  read and control the minds of matter, words fail, just thoughts are left in the wind.

Think  and look, nothing is the same. I looked at u and see something nice and pure, now at the end I see u and i still look something nive ,but not pure as I supposed. thinking the humans live to see , and die to live , I really dont undersant why the lies, I guess  nature make us who we are now; me i'm just a mark if someone can analize me what can u say? Am I  crazy ? or what do u think of my words ? if u understand them is not about love is more in then that a simple menssage, more coplex than reality just give me an oppinion, let me know u guys what do u think of me, and sertenlly will let u know how i feel and think about u.

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damn i dont know what to write i'm tierd just got back from work but anyways HALLOWEEN SOON  yay PARTY ^_^ MUHAHASHAHAHAH so yeah well i'll update more next time meow later .....................@!!!!!!!!!

[	mood	|	excited	]
[	music	|	Aqua-Cartoon Heroes	]

"Time itself is showing now, i can see the light from the dark side that I am. Coming out from the sorrow world, in which I dont belong. light is coming one more time to my life and I'm getting one more chance again. My heart is beating, my soul is smiling, my eyes are looking to the future, to the changes i'm getting. Time came, death looked for me, but none could find me. I was a shadow in the light, hidding in the most dark place , but now i'm a shadow with wings that  will take  me some place away from here. Today i'm here, tomorrow I dont know, what i know is that i'm happy ones more."

Meow damn, i feel so excited, meeeeeeooooooooooooowwwwwwwwww hehehehe lol it's been a while i havebt feel this excite, roaaaar i'm liking this feeling yay =^_^= i feel different in some way, i feel like everythibg is done and i'm coming out from a dark place to the light again, i think thats what i need , that what i deserve. I know I've done many bad things, but they had come back to me and well i deserve a little of happiness thats what i think, well if u desagree with me just let me knoe post something here , leave me a menssage what do u guys think. okay going to sleep now ciao.